random poetry

BLAST FROM THE PAST

it's not on the same page
it's definitely different
and it's nothing new
but it's there, always been there

trying hard to forget
trying hard not to remember
but why oh why
it keeps coming back for more

sick of this feeling
sick of being haunted
what am i supposed to do?
when the best part of me has been taken?

the reason for almost everything
are you there? can you hear me now?
remember this one : "i love you, always have & always will"




PS :  the "i will always love you song"  ----> remember it? :')

"if i should stay, i would only be in your way. so i'll go but i know i'll think of you every step of the way......"

"bittersweet memories that is all i'm taking with me........"

"and i will always love you......"

10 months

it's been 10 months!!!! yeeeyyyy :D

gwrs

it's complicated

hai hai hai semuanyaaaa. sudah lama yah tidak tell tell story. perkembanagan sejauh ini, ujian sekolah done :D tapi kalo nilainya masih KJ 364 deh. jadi banyak hal yang terjadi selama ini, sorry ya kalo gw ga sempet nulis mulu abis lagi ribet dari yang belajar sampe ngurusin ac yah gitulah. but now i'm back!!!!

sebenernya gw rada males nulis blog tapi gw gatau mau ngapain lagi, ini asli bosen banget. dan sedih ya kalo kita lagi sendirian itu. biarpun gw jadi banyak merenung sih. dan thanks to glee, gw jadi ga terlalu sepi deh tadi. masa ya si santana nyanyiin lagu buat sam judulnya : "TROUTY MOUTH" -_____-" but that song has succesfully made me laugh lohhh :D.

are you wondering what's wrong with me? welll gw rasa orang2 yang baca ini blog juga udah tau kenapa. but to make it clear, i'm done. sebentar lagi gw lulus dan gw akan ketemu sama dunia yang jauh lebih jahat dari dunia gw skarang. sedih sih, dan susah buat ngelepas that special someone yang gw pikir bakal terus nemenin gw unyu banget ini emang dasar pikiran anak sma ya, mikirnya masih yang baik2 aja kalo ini tuh bisa jadi happy ending gw, ga perlu susah2 nyari orang lain cause i've found him. butttt, let's face it this is real world and gw realistis aja lah. 22 days left. abis itu gw ga ke skolah lagi so i'll be done anyway, let''s just say gw cuma curi start. bukan start sih, curi finishnya aja.

sooooo skarang gw gatau yah mesti ngomong apalagi. status gw brubah, no longer in a relationship but not single as well since he still got my heart locked under his so let's just say it's complicated.


byebye guys have a nice day :)





























































ps : aku masih sayang kamu bangeeettttttt, tapi aku gabisa ngomong itu langsung. moga2 aja kamu baca ini dan kamu tau

bye bye ujian praktek :D

hari ini hari terakhir ujian praktek and guess what, i did it loh :)
well keseluruhan cukup berjalan dengan lancar lah. makasih buat guru2 yang udah membantu memberi penilaian psikomotorik. God bless you teachers :*

hari senen depan gw akan mulai uas. dan seperti dugaan, pada detik detik terakhir inilah jantung gw berdegup dengan amat cepat. ga terasa deh bentar lagi uas, abis itu un trus bye bye shs :'(
tapi honestly gw ga sabar juga mulai lembaran baru dalam hidup gw (uhuy) sebagai seorang MAHASISWA unyunyunyu cuma kalo ga ada perubahan amat disayangkan ya wo de nan peng you masih pake putih abu2 dikala ane udah pake bebas sebebasbebasnya.

malem ini gw agak sediikit terpukul sih, di hari ini dibbikin bt mulu. ga diskolah, dirumah , dirumah lagi. yah gausah diceritain ya, lagi capek. lagian mesti nyelesaiin slide buat kebaktian besok. intinya cukup tau aja hari ini gw bt.
yang paling bikin gw terpukul ----> "kangen gaaaa?" "enggak"


oke deh gw pergi dulu, mesti lanjutin bikin slide kebaktian. sampai jumpa lagi ya.




ps : for my dear dear friend mekii, safe flight ya. maaf juga soal yang kemaren :( gonna miss you dude. take care

99999999999

9 months. thanks for everything :)

twitter tells everything you NEED to know

yak twitter!!! betapa senangnya gw sama jejaringan sosial satu ini, semuanya loh, SEMUA bisa gw temuin dari twitter. disaat seseorang bilang dia sedang melakukan sesuatu yang GAK MEMUNGKIAN DIA UNTUK NGETWEET tapi pada kenyataannya DIA BISA NGETWEET ato dari mention2 yang ditujukan padanya, yang MERETWEET SEMENTARA TWEET DARI TIMELINENYA SENDIRI DIAPUS. dari cewe pula. unyu banget sih. jadi kangen bima dehhh. kenapa kangen? ya karena sama aja, boong trus ketauan di twitter. well... twitter udah ngomong banyak kok sama gw. makasih ya twitter udah jadi mata ketiga gw selama ini, makasih juga buat anda yang selalu membohongi saya. now tell me, how can i and why should i trust you anyway?

APOLOGIZE - one republic

I'm holding on your rope, 

Got me ten feet off the ground

I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me 

Then you go and cut me down, but wait

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall 

Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat 

But it's nothin new

I loved you with a fire red-

Now it's turning blue, and you say...

"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-

I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...