"now i'm all gone"

first of all, big congratulations for prince William and Kate Middleton for their royal wedding today.

second, i realized how i had screwed up myself with those thought about my past and my forever thing. it's stupid and i should never mention it. but now that it had happened, i guess there's nothing else i could do. i've lost the one i truly love and now i feel empty. i guess i don't know what else to say.

anyway thanks blog, for being there and for listening to me, although you can't cheer me up. :)

so much for the past, time is ticking sugar pie :)

so, i guess i did it. just wrote a blog about my feeling. if it were a painting, i believe it would be abstract. i believe every one of us has their own history, in their own "book-of-life" - well so do i. it almost cost me forever to realize no one could ever lie to their own feeling so i admit it, I've found my first love. I've found my forever. and I've had a so-called relationship with him. but 1 thing i learned, 'forever' is not a chapter. you've got three chapter in your book-of-life and they are past-perfect-future. forever might be not one of  them. but it has a part in every chapter on your life. so my forever lives in the 'past chapter' but he lies in my other chapters. it cross my mind, "should i try to catch it back?" and my mind answer that one perfectly "forever can live as long as they want. but don't make it cost your future" -- of course i know nothing about my future. but i know everything about my present. and in my present, i love my teddybear :)

so what the the hell my forever, please stay in my book. i love you and will always do. it's just not that kind of love anymore. you no longer own my heart, but you own a museum in my mind.

my dear dear dear teddybear, just want you to know all that matter now is the fact that i am so deeply, undeniable, and passionately in love with you, my heart is all yours.
i love you, d :*

random poetry

BLAST FROM THE PAST

it's not on the same page
it's definitely different
and it's nothing new
but it's there, always been there

trying hard to forget
trying hard not to remember
but why oh why
it keeps coming back for more

sick of this feeling
sick of being haunted
what am i supposed to do?
when the best part of me has been taken?

the reason for almost everything
are you there? can you hear me now?
remember this one : "i love you, always have & always will"




PS :  the "i will always love you song"  ----> remember it? :')

"if i should stay, i would only be in your way. so i'll go but i know i'll think of you every step of the way......"

"bittersweet memories that is all i'm taking with me........"

"and i will always love you......"

10 months

it's been 10 months!!!! yeeeyyyy :D